Well well well.

another day of lonelyness and all i can do is cry.

everything i try messes up everyone i love is turning against me. WHAT DO I DO? i cry out but no one hears. I turn my head and wipe my tears. i wake up and scream only to find everything is real an not a dream.

i thought they would have my back for this one and be here for my new choices and totally be ok with it but i was wrong so where do i turn?
 
to an empty computer screen that i fill with my words my pain my sorrow and my heart.

to people i dont even know but their words comfort me in a way i havent known in a long time. and for the breif time i am here i feel ok

its good to be around people who feel my pain and know what its like to have people hate you for who your trying to be and what you want to do

 ...........it hurts