just the other day my family hated me they told me i was useless and they didnt want that i wasnt allowed to stay there anymore and that they were sick of me HEH some family.......then they find out i may be sick....sick with what took my grandfathers wife.......sick with what took my fathers mother............and sick with what took the only mother ive ever known from me and i dont even care......my life is so fucked up right now i feel as if im watching a really twiztd movie and it makes me want to get up and leave.........here ill make a list for those of you who dont know ((#1)my 14 year old cousin has Gangrene in her STOMACH because stupid drs told her she had nothing wrong with her when her appendix has burst inside her and they let it sit like that for a week now shes laying in the hospital close to death(#2)i may have CANCER hoooooo wa! isnt that grand now my family loves me again........fake ass bitches(#3)last night i was woke up in the middle of the night only to find that my cousins house was on fire and they didnt know if anyone was in there or not........my 1 1/2 year old niece was in there and i came out of my bed  to check on them.......there fine........but everything is gone......and if u remember me talking about my hero cousin Josh who saved those girls......yep thats him......his house and everything he had is gone.......but then again what matters the most to him was sitting there with him as we all watched his house burn down together and i held brittany (his wife my bestest gurlie) as she cried(#4)my grandfather who hates me is sick and i still care for him no matter what he says about me or to me........i still care(#5)my other grandfather is getting a D-I-V-O-R-C-E hes almost 60 WTF?(#6)my boyfriend dumped me in my greatest time of need.......alone yet again(#7)im trying to be a cheerleader and play volleyball to help me cope with my news and to try and stop smoking weed.........and they people ive always supported the most are the ones laughing at me now......... (#8) i almost blew my brains out two nights ago......and people wonder why......HAH!!!!!and what blows my mind even more is that i can find so much comfort in a computer screen filled with typed words from people who have never even met me than i can in my own family so wtf people tell me get over it grow up..i want u to be the judge..those of u who have followed my stories when i do post no quite a bit about me...do u think i should get over it and grow up?????....cause i feel i grew up along time ago in the end they say......when it comes down to it, all u have is your family so what do u think.........you guys wanna be my family??????