well it seems there are really people out there who have a heart

and not just pretend to...

maybe i should let you all know who i am outside of my pain......im not a bad person im really not......matter of fact id call myself the good one......so i smoke a little weed.......the way i see it is like this its better i smoke weed...(which is organic not processed with harmfull shit) and smoke ciggarettes (which are totally not good) then be a pregnant teenage mother with no life who dropped out of school and sells herself on the street every night ot get some money to but heroine to shoot up........see now what i do is nothing compared to that right?

just yesterday i had the chance to drink....i said no because me and my bestest friend Brooke were out of town and being as shes not really a great driver anyway(shes 16 and hasnt even thought of getting a permit cause she doesnt no how to drive) i said "no because i have my bestfriends life in my hands and i couldnt live with noing i fucked it up" i said no even though they were all talking about "come on are you a pussy?" "are you scared" and things like that......im the one who would rather take my friends money go buy them some weed so they wont go spend it on "dope" (meth) im the one who tried out for cheerleading even though all my friends laughed in my face...(AND I MADE THE TEAM!!!!!)

id rather spend the weekend at home with a good book listening to music then go party(although it is nice) and i cant do any of that because my family is so "backward" my mother has a 10th grade education and im already smarter than her....and that hurts now whos going to help me with my homework.....matter of face i had to write a letter to my mothers doctor because shes illiterate and cant spell worth a shit......

my father graduated but didnt even think of collage cause he was locked up for 6 years of my life.......heh yes

anyway..... so theres a little bit more about me heh......

am i really that bad?

(?)Michelle(?)