Welcome to my Wonderland
2007-02-28
well well well.........
i made it though anohter night.....
lol
ya ummmm well.........
i suppose i should have something good to say and i dont.........
except.......why is the world so judgemental?
i have this gay friend who ive talked about before his code name is Nikk Purple.....
and some people who i thought i new well enought to be nice were absolutly horrid to him......
ya he dresses a little different and stuff but why treat him like hes got the plague(sp?)??
not only was i hurt for Nikk but i was totally 150% embarrassed for the other two guys who were being rude.......
they laughed in his face and then ran to the bed room were the proceeded to talk so much shit on him to me.......
then didnt even have the nerve to say it to his face they had to run and tell me......
which was the biggest mistake they ever did.....
i dont make fun of people ....unless they put themselves out there to be made fun of
like when you see(no offence) a fat person wearing clothes that are clearly waaaaaaay to small for them
i cant help but snicker and whisper something to my friend
now its nothing as bad as being like "hey you no, no one wants to see your fat ass" its just an Oh my gawd Brooke do you see that.....they need to cover it up.....
but what they did embarrassed me for them like really bad
anyway......
just because someone else isnt like you doesnt amke what they are doing wrong because you dont undertsnad it.
*~*Molly*~*
i JuSt WaNnA bE mE!!!
2007-02-27
ok so first of all any of those pictures on my thing that are drawn.......
are drawn by my best friend Trixie Grey(Brooke)
sooner or later ill write a little about them and let you know whats up with em.....
but for now.......
I JUST WANNA BE ME..........
ok so life sucks.
i find myself with a long list of things i wanna do......
and yet.....
i never see myself doing any of them.......
I want to be a chef
i wanna learn to cook in France......
i wanna star gaze from the Effiel Tower(sp?)
i wanna smell all of the stinky French cheese
I want to travel to Rome and stand in the middle of the Collasium(sp?
and know that many years before
gladiators stood there and fought to the death
for the entertainment of others..........
i want to see the rain forest and whats left of its beauty.........
i want to go to Mexico and lay on the beach all day.....
then watch the beautiful sunset that follows it.........
i want to write something so beautiful that someone somewhere
will be inspired by it......
i want to go from the bottom of the world (the dead sea)
and then staright to the top of the world (mt everest)
and pray i come back down.......
15 out of 20 people never make it down
but to live my dreams......
thats a chance im willing to take......
then if it all works out and i make it back ok i want to live in
Baton Rouge L.A.
and open a nice Cajun resturant
and maybe start a family......
that is.......
if any one will have me......
*~*molly*~*
{A Few Kind Words And A Few Hateful Thoughts}
2007-02-26
its amazing how in one place people can be so rude and in the very same place different people can be so encouraging (sp?) this post is for everyone who had something GOOD to say not those of you who enjoy breaking down a 16 year olds hopes...... ive kinda figured out something.......... well me and my ONLY friend figured out......... see cause as most of you know "mary-jane" is in rehab for weed...... well her mom is a meth head........and if thats not bad enough she smokes weed to and allows her kids to do so as well........she even went as far as to try and help "clean" them out before the got tested...... well mary-jane got a 24 hr pass to come home and supposedly she got a ciggarette out of my pack and supposedly there was a joint in my pack.....(which there wasn't) anyway now shes trying to say that the THC transfered from the joint to the cigg. and its all my fault..... now shes telling my mom i smoke meth(which i dont){oh and to make things even worse mary-janes mom smokes meth with her 14-15 year old daughter marys sister "roxxie"} shes also telling my mom that my pretend mom gives me pills and that im an alcoholic and that ive been sleeping with random people (all of which arent true the most i do is smoke ciggarettes and smoke weed and drink like on new years or something special) now i gotta get piss tested by my mom.....she called the hotline on me.......she took my car away.......shes confined me to her house.......shes signed me up for counsiling(sp?).........and keeps reminding me that im a failure..........anyway now back to what ive come across........ life........its so complicated.......and everyones on a different path......but just because everyones on a different path DOESNT MAKE ANY OF THE THE WRONG ONES life.........life is like a painting......to each his own......one may look at its and find only its flaws.....(the way my mother does me)......another may see its sheer beauty........another may see its uniqueness.......and yet another may see nothing at all........ i realize im not perfect but every flaw i have should not be pointed out to me everyday of my fucking life...... so now i have only one friend Brooke Ann Cantrell or better known as Trixie Grey shes a wonderful person and an even better artist ill try to find a way to put ehr art work on here......... but for now im pretty sure none of you wanna hear about my problems........ so good day and to each of you who gave me an encouraging comment............. YOU REALLY DONT KNOW HOW MUCH THAT MENT TO ME........ Certain flaws are necessary for the whole. It would seem strange if old friends lacked certain quirks. treat a man as he is and he shall stay as he is........but treat a man like he could be and you in turn help him become what hes capable of becomming.......
ShOuLd HaVe GuEsSeD iT
2007-02-23
well i should have known not to put my shit up here.......
to many fucking critics and assholes........
always gotta give out two liners that no one wants to here so until i get the courage again........
im going to stop posting my story after just one try......
so thanks to all of you jackasses who had something to say.....
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
and i realize that this is the world and it is hard and im only 16 but WTF (what the fuck).......
havent you ever heard of "if you dont have something nice to say.....keep it to yourself"
live and learn assholes........
thanks for all your kind........ thoughtfull........encouraging...........RUDE remarks.....
Forever,
Molly
[]D..$
Be who you are and say what you feel........
because those you mind dont matter.....
and those who matter dont mind........
---Dr. Seuss
*@*My Life*@*
2007-02-13
If there could be one song
to describe my life everyday
only one band could do it........
FUEL
"Bad Day"
I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note that said Im sorry, i
I had a bad day again
She spilled her coffee broke a shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said Im sorry, i
I had a bad day again
And she swears theres nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said Im sorry i
I had a bad day again
Nooo...
And she swears theres nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
Oh I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note that said Im sorry, i
I had a bad day again
She left a note that said Im sorry, i
I had a bad day
Nooo
Nooo
Nooo
Nooo
Alright
Oooooo
Ohhh
(*)Miserable(*)
2007-02-08
You make me cum.
You make me cumplete.
You make me cumpletely miserable.
-Lit
Well hmmmmm im currently looking for new friends. So anyone who has been looking at my blog feel free to message me.
trust me i have nothing better to do.
no freaky shit please im not into that whole "computer sex" shit its creepy.
just someone or some people to talk to.
as friends.
oh an p.s for any of the family looking or for anyone that cares.
32 more days
*`*The Scales*`*
2007-02-02
OK.
todays friday.
awesome.
and its now 38 days until Mizz. Mary-Jane returns.
38 and counting.
i miss her.
a lighter note.......my life has finally settled out for the moment. and i have come across a new thought.
Trixie Grey and I have been friends for like ever and up until now ive never thought of it like this but....
our friendship is a scale and balanced scale if you will. like this - = - i am on the left and she is on the right
Trixie would have to be the evil one of us. shes not afraid of gore and blood and loves to hurt people. almost as if it gives her personal satisfaction. (Kind of twisted i know) but she is who she is and i love her none the less for it. if nothing else im the only one who really understands her.
anyway and i am the kind one. sometimes to kind. but i can be a SUPER bitch. im the one who cringes at the sight of others being hurt because i can feel it almost as if its happening to me and thats my flaw....kindness.....but anyway sometimes the scale gets to be like this _=- where her side out weighs mine but i eventually draw the line for her and tell her enough is enough. but then theres times where she has to tell me "hey get a grip and stop eing so nice" thats when i no its time to kick ass.
so i guess you can say that even though the scales are tipped at times ,
weve been around each other long enough to know how to keep it level - = -
*~*i lub ya Trix*~*
*~*See ya after school*~*
*~*Molly*~*
